Why Do I Do That?

Hello Blogger! It seems like I've been away for awhile. I took a break from social networking while my church took a time of consecration/fasting during Passion week. Speaking of Passion week, how was your Easter holiday? Mine was great, spent time remembering my savior Jesus Christ and the events leading up to his death, burial, and Resurrection. Great Word, Great food, Great fellowship included! I hope you all enjoyed it.

Anywho, I was thinking the other day about this need I have for getting "my fair share" of shared food...not making sense? OK, so since I was little my older sister and I always had our fair share of whatever my mom bought. Like if she bought us pop-tarts, half the box was mine, the other half my sisters. When my mom had our little brother,I was eight and my sister was nine, that introduced a whole 'nother mouth into the equation....well, once he was able to eat the same foods as us. It didn't matter that he was younger than us, or smaller. He still got his share equal to ours. We never questioned it. That's just the way it was. Our fair share. So, here I am 23 years old, I'd sit down to eat with my husband who is almost 1ft. taller than me with an appetite to match the gap. And I'd find myself trying to eat more or faster because I want to get my "fair share."(Get the picture above now? lol.)  I remember I asked him once did he ever feel like he was eating too fast, trying to keep up with the person you're sharing food with? He kind of shook his head and said uh, no. lol at me. I started to say, "I don't know why I do that", but I do know. My mindset when sharing food is one that was ingrained into my head since I was a little girl. There are x amount of people and x amount of food. Divide food by people...well you get the idea. But, since I've been counting calories, I'm really realizing how that can contribute to overeating. I don't eat very much in one sitting. I would classify myself as a snacker rather than an over eater. So, I'm usually full pretty fast. That's not the case with my husband, He has a much bigger appetite than me, but I'd find myself trying to divide the food up evenly. Why? Because that was the right thing to do...WRONG!!! I'm discovering that it's OK if I don't get what I perceive to be my fair share. I simply don't eat as much as my husband, and I don't need to. Counting calories has helped in that I don't feel the need to hoard food. It's OK if he eats more because he needs more. It's OK that I get less because I need less. There's no need in trying to take more...well, unless I'm trying to save some for my lunch the next day ;-) I do agree that dividing food up evenly works great, especially when you have a house full of growing kids, but at some point you have to realize that it may be a behavior that needs to be reevaluated, especially if it's causing you to overeat. That's as deep as I get for today. lol. Is there a behavior you have regarding food that you realize isn't OK. Can you pinpoint where it may have come from?

On to my day today. The weather outside was pretty nice today. San Francisco weather can be so fickle that I always tease it's best to dress in layers, so you'll be prepared for whatever is thrown your way. It had been raining for the past few days (Thank you Lord for providing water we need for things to grow, etc.) Today it was only partly cloudy, so there was a nice amount of sunshine that sprung forth. The little man and I took the jogging stroller out and went to the grocery store for a few items. It's always nice to get out of the house to get a nice walk in. Shoot, it's just nice to get physical activity in each day. Speaking of the jogging stroller and physical activity, I'm considering doing training to run a 5K. Nothing formal, but using one of those couch potato to 5K apps that set up a run/walk interval cycle for you to build up your stamina and endurance. I'm looking into finding a good route with little to no hills. I will keep you all posted on how that endeavor goes.

I'm on my fourth week of phase I in P90X. There are III phases, with each lasting four weeks. The fourth week is called recovery week because you take a break from the strength training exercises to give your muscles a break. Instead all the workouts are cardio centered. However, last week I missed three workouts because I got a pretty nasty cold, and I couldn't breathe well enough to do such intense exercise routines. So, instead of doing just recovery week, I'm doing those exercises that I missed!! I'm so excited, phase I is almost done, then I move into phase II which is a whole new set of intense workouts to encourage muscle confusion!

With the end of this month comes update pictures and body stats!!! I'm excited, I can tell that I've lost weight, but I hope that my pictures can reflect it well. I said I'd be posting every thirty days, but to make it a bit more systematic, I will be posting pictures and stats on the 1st of each month. Stay tuned!!!

Grace and Peace,

Char